I have always put my kids and my husband before myself, and then find comfort in my sewing, when I can sew. But the truth is...I'm just burying how I'm really feeling; using my family as a front for not being happy with myself. I've been feeding myself this lie (and peanut m&m's) that as long as I'm able to be creative in some way, I'll be happy.
Enough is enough!! The other day I told my sister in law that I was going to take a hiatus from sewing come April...because that should give me enough time to get some projects done that I need to get done. For some reason I can only focus on one thing at a time...well, it's time to focus on me. I do have a few projects that need getting done, but I can easily manage those on the side.
The most important thing is for me to focus on me, to get healthy, to get happy, to get a life outside of this bubble that I live in (called my super messy house).
Today I visited a blog that I've been a follower of for a long time...I've been so busy I haven't caught up in Google Reader in a couple years...oops. House of Smith's is the cutest DIY blog out there and the writer/owner Shelley Smith has been on a weight loss kick since last year. She has lost 70 lbs. and seems so happy! I want that. Although I could stand to lose a full 65 lbs. I'd be happy with the 45 (or even 30!) that I have gained in 8 years of marriage (this April).
So I'm doing it. This is it. I don't want to lose any readers over this and I don't plan on posting a whole lot to the blog over the next few months but I do feel that blogging about it may prove to be helpful...hold me accountable. And maybe someone, even one of you would be inspired to do the same. I don't usually finish things; one of the reasons why quilting/sewing is so satisfying. But this is really important.
My goal is to lose 45 lbs. by October 1st. That's possible. That's only 6 pounds a month!
I won't share much more information except that I am 5'9 and am a size 18. I'm posting a couple before pics so that if you're interested in following any progress you can see it as well (oh goodness this is really starting to sink in...).
And since I don't want to have you leave the blog on a fatty note, here's a couple pics of sewing related things. I received my swap package from the Doll Quilt Swap, and I just dropped off that queen size quilt to my local long arm quilter. I will FOR SURE post pictures of it when it comes back.